sorting it out

so these older posts were a forced assignment for a computer class i was taking. to read them now makes me cringe.i've come back to this place a few years later just to kind of talk to myself, vent a bit, where i know no one else will hear. i've always felt better after putting my thoughts out there. then i am able to put them in the place they belong and move on.this time however, i'm not sure it's going to be so easy. when the thoughts that are giving you the trouble have to do with your heart, that's when the moving on slows to a snails pace.i'm in such a tricky situation -- there's been the flip flopping back and forth between 'talking' and not, then 'being friends' and not. and now, that i've developed feelings for him again, i have no idea what to do. what's worse is how i ended things last...by just not talking. more on that later... second, my best friend doesn't get along with him. i don't know how that would go over in the long run... so much to sort out, i'll definitely be here lots!!!